It has been almost a year since we first started praying for our second baby. I remember hoping I was pregnant at Eliot's first birthday party. That would have been kind of a small age gap, but I always wanted my babes to be very close. I wasn't pregnant, though.
In May, I was. And then in June, I wasn't. I never knew just how heartbreaking that can be or how raw I could feel.
So when I felt that my heart and body had both healed and we tried again, I was scared. And it didn't happen right away. It took months. But then I learned in October that I was pregnant. I felt hopeful; I felt terrified.
For weeks, every ache was accompanied with overwhelming fear. I constantly thought I was bleeding, but I wasn't. I prayed all the time. With Eliot, I had worry, but not like this.
Today, at 12 weeks, we had our first doctor's appointment. I didn't intend to wait this long, but the doctor in Lynchburg didn't want to see me until the 12th anyway, so we figured we'd just wait to see a more permanent doctor here six days later. I knew I had been growing and happily enduring early pregnancy symptoms, but when I saw that baby tumble around on the screen with his or her arms waving, legs kicking, and heart beating... Heart beating... Well, I finally felt at ease.
Coming July 2, 2013. Robinson baby number 2. :)
That's so exciting Katie! Congrats! I also had a miscarriage & it was the worst feeling in the world. I always knew I would have problems getting pregnant. Me & Nick tried on our own for a year & nothing happened. We then went to an infertility center & found out that I had 3 problems preventing me from getting pregnant...when I finally got pregnant I miscarried at 8 weeks. Then 5 months later I got pregnant with Aiden. I was so scared because I was afraid I would miscarry again, the whole pregnancy I was always scared that something would happen. Now he's a healthy 2 1/2 year old. haha!! I got pregnant with Abigail when Aiden was 5 months old & she's a healthy 1 year old. :)
ReplyDeleteCongrats Katie! I am SO happy for you! Merry Christmas! My Leila is a July baby and she is perfection. ;-) Praying for a healthy and happy pregnancy for you!
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